To everyone on LJ that, especially those that considered me a friend, I'm sorry I just disappeared. I honestly am and do feel bad about it. Please let me explain.
I joined LJ as an escape from my real life. I was miserable and needed to go some place that didn't have the stuff I was dealing with all the time. I'm sure some of you can understand completely. It got to the point where my life consisted of the misery, TV (especially Supernatural) and LJ. I was very unhappy and you all made it possible to survive one of the darkest points in my life.
No, I never troubled any of you with what I was going through because that would have brought it into this world and I did not want that. You were my salvation and I wasn't going to taint that. Please know I value each and every one of you. Thank you for sharing this world with me and helping keep me alive and functioning.
In a few days, I'm going to cancel my LJ. I may look in on y'all from time to time and I will comment and leave my name so you know it's me.
Some of you may find this funny, others shocking. There is life beyond Supernatural. No, its not blasphemy. It's honesty. If you told me that in August 2009 I would have been irritated. Supernatural and LJ was my life.
It's kind of sad now that I think about it. Not that I'm putting anyone down that this is all they have. On the contrary, I hope this is what you need while you need it and that eventually you regain control, or whatever and get back to living a life outside of a TV show and LJ. It's possible I did it.
To share just a tiny bit; I met and follow and small local band and have made more friends than I ever thought possible. It's more than I ever figured I'd do in my entire life.
Don't get me wrong, I still watch Supernatural. I'm going to see it through until the end (no matter how weird it's gotten). I just want you all to know no TV show now matter how awesome it started is a replacement for living.
So here something to think about; when you feel you can, turn off your TV and computer and take a chance. Go out and find a place that has live music and people. I don't remember what the old saying is about music soothing the beast and/soul but it's true. I'm finally at peace and my wish for you is that you may find peace in your lives.
"A friend of a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend has a 5-yr old son in his last stages of a 2.5 year battle with Neuroblastoma cancer. They are celebrating Christmas next weekend and he's requested Christmas cards. Anyone who would like can send a card to: Noah Biorkman, 1141 Fountain View Circle, South Lyon, MI 48178. Let's see how far away... he can get a card from! Come on all you great people across the country, help out a little boy!"
Re-posted via a friend's update on Facebook.
Have you ever had a dream that felt so real that when you woke up you could still feel it?
I'll be the first person to admit that I have weird dreams. I don't remember a time when I didn't so they're really not all that weird to me anymore but you be the judge.
So, weird dream huh?
For those of you not wrapped up in the big bang frenzy there are other things going on. WTF? I know. There are other things in fandom than big bang. (No offense to those participating.)
Two awesome communities are gearing up to help us get through this
Drop by j2_afterclass and join the fun. There's a long long list of high school and movie related TV shows and movies. Claiming starts soon so get there and check out the lists.
I wish spnbuddies had been around a long time ago. This community is for writers ,artists, betas and cheerleaders that are willing to help out one another when the need arises. Haven't we all wanted a cheerleader (that sounded dirty/bad/wrong) or artist in the past and not known how to find one? Well now we all know where to go.
I have no idea if editing a post will make it show on flists again so I'm being a dork and making this post.
I edited the Dean/Castiel fic post. The rest of the prompt came to me and since I told those of you that read it I'd update when I finished; TADA! Go check that post again.
Title: Live and Learn
Warning: blowjob, TV porn come shot and g/g oral sex
Word count: dunno, it was supposed to be comment porn
Summary: half filled prompt for a request at the Supernatural Kink Meme
AN: I posted it but realized I hadn't filled the whole prompt. It was Dean fucking Castiel after the blowjob. I lost the thread. You guys get to read it. If I stumble across the rest I'll finish and update this post.
AN2: I almost put muff diving in the warning line. *shakes head* What can I say? Its nearly 3:30 pm and I'm writing porn. Did I mention I'm a little slap happy?
Disclaimer: Really, you think?
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coming from insane_songbird
01. Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper at their LiveJournal. (Just dooooo it!)
02. Explain in five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
03. Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!
1. I took this picture several summers ago with my cell phone.
2. It reminds me of nature's beauty.
3. Other/random people see my desktop therefor it can't be weird/odd/fandom related. (I don't want to explain why I have pictures of TV characters/actors on my desktop. I am a 34 year old woman and that just seems "not right".)
4. I have a different desktop for each season/holiday. This is my summer icon.
5. It's pretty.
That last one was a cop-out because I couldn't think of a fifth good one.